Why I’m Struggling with My Mormonism

These last few months have been a real struggle for me.  For the last 50 years, I haven’t been a strong member.  But things have gotten decidedly worse lately.

So what has happened recently?

  • Seer Stone:  The recent pictures of Joseph Smith’s seer stone were not in themselves a problem.  The problem is that the stone forces me to once again confront Mormonism magic past.  Frankly seer stones, Urim and Thummim, treasure hunting, talking in tongues, animal sacrifice, sticking your head in a hat, etc. make me very uncomfortable.
  • Black Priesthood/Temple Ban:  The failure of the LDS Church leadership to admit that the ban was wrong causes me a great deal of personal grief, as does the failure to make a formal apology for the pain it caused black members and non-members alike.  And I wonder how many potential converts were lost because of the unfortunate ban?
  • LGBT Discrimination:  The leadership’s treatment of this issues has been abysmal. It could have just separated civil marriage from temple sealing.  This is already being done in countries outside the USA.  It would also allow for better participation by non-Mormons and members like me in wedding ceremonies.  Continued LGBT discrimination will also make future convert baptisms in the USA, Canada, and western Europe even more difficult.
  • Boy Scouts:  If the LDS Church wants to separate from BSA, there are much better reasons than LGBT issues.  To handle this issue the way the PR department did just makes the Church look truculent.  It also reminds the world that the LDS Church discriminates against its girl members.
  • Female Discrimination:  The LDS Church’s inability to find responsible, high leadership and decision-making positions for women is very frustrating.  So far, all the leadership has been willing to do is take a few token steps.
  • Anti-science Statements:  When the Church leaders make statements that encourage Old Testament literalism, they encourage members to distrust science.  This can lead to anti-evolution, anti-vaccination, anti-global warming, anti-environmentalism and anti-LGBT sentiments.

The biggest problem, however, is the Church leadership’s inability to identify really important issues.  Instead it is obsessing over issues that are making it look irrelevant to both younger members and potential converts.  Anybody in Mormondom concerned about poverty, global warming, gun violence, the environment, etc.?

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4 Responses to Why I’m Struggling with My Mormonism

  1. joeythebuddhist says:

    I hope you find more peace 🙂

  2. dor says:

    It is heart-wrenching for me to read this because I know that you behave as a wonderful example of Mormonism: respectful, kind, charity-focused, compassion-oriented and viewing “the other” as an embodiment of Christ. In short, you exhibit Mormonism as a faith of attraction. As one hymn goes “they will know us by our love.”
    You are right to question these issues, because these issues are the trappings of the institution and not the ways of God. When you question them, and join your voice to others who do so, you are doing a service to your faith.
    The institution of Mormonism will, perhaps, feel the pain of a tarnished brand. I believe that people who long for faith long to bind up the wounds of the world are not concerned with the pettiness of the kinds of divisions you’ve outlined. In time, the Church leaders are bound to see what you see.
    In the mean time, pay homage to the gifts that Mormonism has given you that formed a heart so clear, so true to Christ that you can see and feel the pain of being separate from the work of healing.When you consider your Mormonism, what is important to you, if anything, about it? Is it your personal history? Is it your relationships? Where is your heart? Let those places sustain, let those places remind you that you are not worshiping a Temple or an institution, but rather you are participating in a body who is dedicated to acting on behalf of that aspect of the universe that joins us in love and unity.

  3. kurt says:

    Just leave. Stand up, be a man and walk out the door and don’t look back. Mormonism will unfortunately thrive just fine without you. Don’t worry. Just go. You are too intelligent for this mumbo jumbo. Go visit the gorillas again.

  4. rogerdhansen says:

    Thanx for the advise. Visiting the gorillas is pretty much a once in a lifetime event. There are many other fun things to do like visiting the ancient rock churches in northern Ethiopia. Visiting an interesting museum in central Asia.

    Right now, I can see no reason to leave the LDS Church. I can’t find anything better. The Church also has buildings in Africa that can help me with some of my volunteer work.

    But basically, I’m anti-organization. I’m a bit of a non-violent anarchist. I don’t think that’s an oxymoron or oxyMormon.

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